One of my ex-boyfriends was a meat cutter. I remember telling him to be careful about his attitude when he went to work. I said that if he had a bad day, someone was going to take home the meat he touched and have an argument with his family around the dinner table. Even all those years ago I was aware of the transference of energy, even to inanimate (or no longer animate) objects. I have become more aware to this day,
Normally I'd think, yuck. However, I was once a vegan years ago, and have been eating much healthier recently. In addition, as of late, I'd actually been thinking about giving up meat again. So I jumped at the chance to try these delicacies.
....Her food did more than give me a memory.... it transported me back in time decades ago when I was healthier, leaner, and not yet weighed down with the crushing responsibilities of life. The AIR smelled sweeter.... At that moment I was sitting in the office, but my soul was transformed.... I WAS THAT WOMAN AGAIN.... Light, young, strong, free.... My body tingled and became warm; I was electrified. Dumbfounded, all I could do was stare and think, "Wow...."
During this time, my co-worker first eyed me suspiciously, then began to laugh. As she already knows I am 'strange,' all was well. This experience lasted for a full half an hour. As it slowly began to fade, I mourned its loss and struggled to cling to every molecule of the sensation. I was still flushed.
"Your food is LIFE!" I exclaimed to my co-worker. "It tastes as though you just pulled it from the ground! It is not good, nor bad.... It simply IS! Like air, you don't question it, you simply breathe! It's unconscious!" I rambled on like this the entire time. What exactly was I trying to say? I DON'T KNOW. To this day, I can not find the appropriate words to verbalize my thoughts.
Yes, even now as I type, I remember, I feel....
I imagine what I would my existence would be like if I ate like that on a daily basis....
~ Shelby Fizer